And there were stories...

Because of a friend's wedding, everyone was reminded of their singlehood. I really can't believe that our group is a little unlucky when it comes to the matters of heart. Each has their own individual burdens.n_n

Where were we?

What a journey!

A new year has come and I am looking forward in setting things in their proper places. I'm not sure if I started my year right but I have reconciled with my ex about the things that we should have talked about more that a year ago. I'm not looking forward on being with him but I had my stupid little hopes which is not good for me. He has his girlfriend right now and I really think he's happy with her. The feeling of being cheated is still there but not as strong as before because my optimism is automatically highlighting the benefits of us separated than the feeling of me longing for him. In addition, I have also seen her picture in FB and its alright to put a face on the girl that has been my ghost for several months now.

*sigh

I have to do that because I am writing with a heavy heart. The feeling of lost and hurt came over as I unload the things that I already put in the box labeled " MY EX". I've been living in peace since I put that box away but being acquainted with him again and hearing the things he said (and thinking about them all the time) is like scratching a newly closed wound and it hurts like hell. Come to think of it, when I was young, my elders would caution me to rest after the actual recovery from a fever because the "binat" is worst than the fever. I'm not as depressed as before but I am not okay. Hormone fluctuation are also considered.

I should really convince myself of what is obvious: HE'S MOVED ON. I have, but seems to be side tracked for the moment. I have been here, its very familiar and I have won before. Still happy to be back.n_n