February is hell for single people. Everything is a constant reminder about singleness and it sucks, really. It's been a while since I felt really excited about the "heart's day", wondering what surprise your going to get from your boyfriend. It is also the time when you prepare what to give him. This is actually not my first valentines day alone, its my second. Why do we fuss about valentines day after all?
I remember Jessica Zafra's idea about valentine's day. According to her, this is actually the time when guys are expected to bring gifts and flowers to their girlfriends so they would not complain for the whole year if they would not receive any. It was cute. Why do we really want to feel special, why do we want to receive gifts?
Nah, in the end, its all about being special. I don’t know but a bf/gf relationship is really special that it’s the most famous narrative when it comes to living life. Love stories and love songs are popular because people believe in love. Even the most popular conception of love is not the religious love nor the parental love but the romantic love that we see.
Well, I have survived before, I think I can survive again.n_n.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
23 na!
Same time last year, I was hoping for a greeting that did not come. He left and broke my heart. Now, I can't even remember my feelings for him though I can recall how I stayed and hoped that everything will be fixed. Sigh*
Anyway, 2010 has been though and I've been expecting a tougher 2011. Well, like the famous beer commercial: when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. I only pray that the Lord find we worthy to be granted another year, another chance to explore and share. I can even see the new hurdles from here. So, what are my plans?
Career. Gotta go to a graduate school asap. Yes, I am pressured and its really inconvenient but this is also my obligation given my profession. My hesitations are of financial matters and specialization. I'm giving it a shot.
Lovelife. I'm not looking but will accept suitor. I'm beginning to loose the anxiety of not having a date during lanterns and valentines. Somehow, I found things beyond intimate relationships. I enjoy teasing and missing Orange (because I think I am seriously in-love with him).
Career. Yep, things are rough. This is the time of testing and taking things into a different level. I hope to enter graduate school next year and physical, mental, psychological and financial strains are expected.
Faith. I have ideas of exploring other faith which does not reflect my dissatisfaction with my current religious affiliation. Orange belongs into a different sect so I was hoping he could share his belief with me (well, some of them are really alike).
Family. I don’t know how to help them because of my current position.
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